11.02.2007

Ellaeenah

I will ask each of you to complete two sentences that I will start for you. Please finish these sentences on its own, without conscious deliberate thought. The first sentence I wish you to finish, keeping in mind your day to day reality, nothing so-called spiritual about the answer. Here is the first sentence…..I wish to be…….

For the next sentence I wish you to focus on the spiritual light within you, not your material reality. I wish to be…..

If there is someone who will volunteer to share their answers….

S: The first sentence was I wish to be a good mother, and the second sentence was I wish to be  fairy.

Thank you, S. Friends, the subject for today is The Beingness of Consciousness. Now here you have two answers, which seem to have little or no connection to each other. Her material consciousness wishes to be a good mother, and her spiritual consciousness wishes to be a fairy. The beingness of consciousness, can not be two different things on two different planes…it can only manifest as what appears to be different. But the essence of the beingness always remain the same.

Let us take S’s wishes as an example. A good mother… a fairy. If we had asked S to elaborate upon what ‘fairy’ means to her, she probably would have said what most of us feel, a light creature, tiny, delicate, sensitive, making your wishes come true, taking care of you. How is that different from a good mother? It’s exactly the same. Now let us understand the Beingness of S’s Consciousness. Her Consciousness reveals to her that it wishes to BE.

The ‘I’ in the sentence is an all-encompassing I…it starts from the core of the universe, and ends in the core of mother earth. That is the straight line of the ‘I’ of our Consciousness. S’s Consciousness wishes to BE of a certain energy structure, colour, tone. It wishes to embody, yes, embody, gentleness, delicacy of being, refinement, concern, giving in to the desires of others without pre-judgment and opinion, taking care of others, making them happy and joyous. When we look at the Beingness of Consciousness, we also have to simultaneously understand the Non-Beingness of Consciousness. We experience both theses aspects simultaneously… that is why the sentence starts with I wish to be…I will explain ‘Non-Beingness’ a little later.

S’s Non-Beingness of consciousness is experiencing control, so let us assume that her son desires one wish to be fulfilled, but S insists that it is not the right or appropriate wish for him at all. Not like a fairy who fulfills your wishes unquestioningly. So S’s Non-Beingness of Consciousness is experiencing a reality that is different from the Beingness of Consciousness. … it is different from the reality that wishes to BE through her at present.

So what is Non-Beingness? Is it something that does not exist? Is it an illusion? No. S’s Non-beingness of Consciousness is a past Beingness of Consciousness which is extending itself into the present reality, where it now does not find a suitable place. Her Beingness of Consciousness of a past reality is of a controlling person, a male energy, powerful in decisions and execution….her Beingness of Consciousness of the present is that of a fairy… light, gentle, soft, delicate.  So Non-Beingness is a Beingness of a past which you still continue to live out, due to habit.

Today what you have all done is to discover the true Beingness of your Consciousness in this moment of the NOW, in this present reality. And, dearest S, in this NOW, your beingness of Consciousness is not one of outward strength, power in execution, control…it is the Consciousness of nurturing, of gentle caring, of non-judgment, of loving acceptance….like the fairy with the golden wand. So you have seen your Beingness in this NOW and your Beingness in that past. And do not thin k that it was wrong then. It was what Consciousness wished to BE in that past. Had you not experienced fully that Beingness of Consciousness, you would not now be ready to experience this Beingness of Consciousness.

Now you have to be aware that you are living out of habit; you are living a Beingness that you are used to and which you are comfortable with because of its familiarity due to a long-term experience of it. But it is not your Beingness anymore… that is why I used the word Non-Beingness.

M: My sentences were… I wish to be a doctor…..I wish to do good for others

I think all of us can see the connection between these two sentences. For M being a doctor does not mean a name plate on a door saying ‘specialist’, it does not mean a line of patients waiting for hours, it does not mean charging high fees for a ten-minute consultation ( and this is by no means a judgment of those who do it… that is their beingness of consciousness). For M a doctor is one who HEALS, not only the body but the mind and the spirit as well. And that, in his consciousness, is doing good for others. Does this mean that those who don’t do healing work are not doing good for others? No, let’s not jump to any such conclusions. Let us understand that healing equals to being good is M’s Beingness of Consciousness. For him, healing and good go hand in hand.

This is his Beingness of Consciousness as it is now. Then let us understand the Non-Beingness of M’s Consciousness, which he is still living out, at a sub-conscious level, out of habit. M knows intellectually that healing involves complete and utter embrace, and the fact that he wishes to be …. means that he is not in complete embrace of others in the Non-Beingness of his Consciousness. In fact, it could happen that when he is healing someone he could pass judgment of the person’s beliefs and lifestyle. On that lies the essence of not ‘all-embracing’.

A healer does not look for and expect the right inner environment in one who heals. If there was a perfectly balanced inner environment, would the person be in need of your help to heal? When you tell someone, for example, “of course your neck ache will not go… you refuse to be less rigid!!!”  With this statement no healing can take place. In fact what does happen is to create an even stronger environment of rigidity. An ‘all-embracing’ healer would begin to work on the rigidity without voicing it, without feeling any irritation whatsoever.

You do not need to further the inner imbalance by passing judgment or opinion about it. Embrace the imbalance, only then can you truly heal. Till the person has reached a required level of inner strength, you embrace his imbalance….in that is the healing, in that is the doing good. Healing is knowing what the person REALLY needs, and embracing that need completely. M, your Beingness of Consciousness is drawing your attention to the fact that in the NOW you are such a healer, and that you need not live out of habit any more. You Beingness of Consciousness wishes to heal, not to set it right. If you cannot intuitively understand the difference between the two, you cannot be a healer. Your beingness of Consciousness urges you to have your body, mind and spirit in full harmony, so that there is genuine acceptance, understanding, embrace. When this is so, the mind knows and analyses the problem, spirit embrace the problem, and body goes on to do the physical healing work.

Y: My two sentences were… I wish to be singer… I wish to be God.

How beautiful, Y. For Y, God is a being that spreads harmony, sweetness, where there is no discordance, where all the notes are playing in a perfect musical blend, like each ‘note’ (referring to the people gathered there) sitting before me is playing in perfect tune with each other, without any conflict. The singer also has no conflict. Deep within you, Y, there lies a tune, your own special song which needs to be released. Give yourself a little time, and you will hit upon that special song which will always you feel joyous, expanded. Pay close heed to the words of that song, and it will reveal to you your Beingness of Consciousness.

Now let us see what is the Non-beingness of your Consciousness that you are living in out of habit. Discordance….conflict…disharmony. How often you have asked…why does my life work like this? The answer is … because you are used to conflict; you are used to reaching harmony through conflict. That is your Non-beingness at work. You are used to the fighting, the conflict, the struggle, the straining, the resistance. But that is not your Beingness any more. Be aware of this and sing your special song. Be God. God does not need conflict. God is Consciousness. Be conscious of each moment. Be conscious of how you are creating a conflict out of past habit. And then stop doing that.

Now you are wondering… How? How am I creating it? Small example… J has a flight to catch and you have misplaced the ticket. Instantly you will begin to blame yourself… how stupid I am... how will J react? ... He will miss that important meeting….Blame creates the most stunning example of a conflict. Instead, sing your song and expand your consciousness… and you will see the ticket where it is lying. But for that you have to be completely without blame. The song of your heart, the song of your spirit must sing out loud. It must sing out the fact… I am God….and if today this ticket is not found and J is not on that plane, that is MY SONG….Yes, J may shout, but Y, each time you shout at your beloved master, does he go into a tizzy of blame? Of guilt? Of shame? Why not? Because he knows he is God. Irritation and anger cannot penetrate consciousness.

Look into your Beingness of Consciousness. Do this exercise again months apart. Understand that Consciousness is constantly evolving. It does not stand still. It is we who stand still. We get used to a state of Beingness and we keep reacting and living in that past. We have not moved. Our consciousness has evolved and is waiting for us to catch up with it. Do this exercise periodically. What is the Beingness of my Consciousness in this NOW? And as soon as it is revealed to you, MOVE. Move from the past; take a few steps into this reality. Yes, you will get stuck in this reality too, but so what? Each time you are aware of being stuck… Move again. If you do this periodically, it is easy to catch up with your Consciousness. Till one glorious day when you wish to say I wish to be….the words will come out as I AM….

BE your Consciousness… Always.

Thank you for your love and support each week.