08.07.2007

Ellaeenah

Consciousness knows that all is one and that energy is undifferentiated. Knowingness is aware of energy only through its different and distinct aspects. As a result, at one level of your beingness you have the complete wisdom of oneness, and at another level of your beingness you recognize energy only through its distinctions and are ignorant of unity. We, as joyous beings of paradox, live on these two levels smoothly, effortlessly. Conflict arises when we begin to introduce the aspect of unity in the knowingness, which by its very functioning is not meant to recognize it. Thus we see that often our actions are incorrectly focused. Instead of introducing unity in our realm of knowingness, we should attempt to close the gap between consciousness and knowingness, such that consciousness naturally becomes aware of knowingness and differentiation, and knowingness naturally becomes more conscious of unity. Both consciousness and knowingness need to experience the two polarities naturally. This can only happen through closing the gap between consciousness and knowingness.

Today we will see how we can bridge this gap by using that very same differentiated energy which often is condemned by spiritualists and religious followers. We tend to get so intellectually spiritual and so spiritually intellectual that we take a whip to ourselves each time we don’t experience unity. We don’t experience unity for very large parts of our living existence. The moment you pick up a telephone to call a dear one, you are experiencing separation. The moment I turn around and call you by your name, we experience separation. The moment you criticize and judge another, you experience separation. Just by the fact that I am sitting here and talking to you, we are experiencing separation. Every aspect of our lives is truly a joyous experience of separation. We resist this joyous experience by constantly attempting to intellectualize through our knowingness the aspect of unity. Knowingness can only intellectualize unity; it cannot experience it because it was not meant to experience it. We have chosen a joyous dual existence. Instead of fighting it, let us use it to help us bridge the gap between conscious reality and knowing reality, so that it some future NOW when the time-space continuum does not influence our existence, these two realm will seamlessly merge into undifferentiated energy.

To use our knowingness for this purpose, we must, first joyously acknowledge that I am I, and I am not you, and that you are you, and not I. I can see from your faces that I am taking your truths and putting them on their heads, by making this statement. In our current stage of evolution, knowingness is predominant, and however much we may like to intellectualize, we cannot fight against this truth. Our need for names is ample proof that this is so. When I acknowledge from the core of my being that I am Ellaeenah, she is Divyaa,  he is Sohrab, and so on, then I give them the right to be who they are, and not to be my projections. 

Let us be honest. When you say X is I, you accept that as truth only when X acts, speaks, thinks, feels, does, as you do. But as soon as another dares to think, feel, believe, act differently from you, instantly there is a reaction that pushes that person away from you. So you see, you do not truly unite with another; you accept them when they happen to reveal the characteristics and traits you are comfortable with. Now if you use knowingness and separation as a joyous experience you will give everyone the right to be WHO THEY ARE and not what you wish them to be, because you have already acknowledged I am X….he is Y. Thus you give the other the right to his own truths.

You may be thinking ‘who are you to give anyone any rights?’ This is the doing of our ego. Why do we have walls, conflicts? Because at that deep unspoken level of our existence we believe that we have the right to bestow upon another their rights…this is the ‘control issue’ that all of humanity suffers from. Teachers and parents and primary care takers do it all the time. The right to think is our greatest ego tussle. If it weren’t, why would you react so strongly when someone speaks against your truths or disagrees with them? When we acknowledge the full separation of our existences we will give others the full right to think, without conditions and modifications.

Can you see how we are approaching the same end from a completely different angle? It is still about acceptance, it is still about oneness, but it is being viewed through the filter of separation. This perception makes you ‘non-intellectual’ and thus helps you to release yourself from the burden of guilt. Every time you react either with anger, revenge, through a passive manipulation, and so on, you get into a state of guilt because you have so fervently tried to experience unity, and here you are ‘tripping up again’. This leads to self chastisement and self negation, that is applied through the whip of unity.

Unity was not meant to be a whip; it was meant to be a beacon of light calling us home. Unity will happen in its natural course; your beating yourself up is not going to hasten the process, but it may certainly retard it. The truth is that though we know that we are one from the consciousness level, at a vital level we know ourselves separate from each other. Humanity will move towards unity when each separate strand moves separately, but collectively, towards that common goal. Each one does this in their own time, in their own way and at their own pace. Which race are you going to finish before the rest of unity? Why not enjoy the running of each lap?  Feel the blood pumping in your veins saying ‘I am who I am…I am me, and I am proud of it’.

Let us go through an exercise which I call conscious contact….conscious…through consciousness…contact…through separation.

We are going to forget that intellectual truth of unity, and we will focus on energy as completely differentiated. Through this process I wish to take you to a place that I have reached, where the gap between consciousness and knowingness is very small. I wish you to understand that separation is an aspect of unity itself, and they are not paradoxical.

Think of one person in living existence; someone you know very well, whether you like that person or not is immaterial. Strongly visualize that person. Bring about the full potential of your knowingness. Experience joyously how different you are from that person. First focus on the physical differences, and then move to the differences in character traits, strengths and weaknesses. Strongly focus on a personal strength that you are proud of, and a strength of the other that you are aware of. Now try to feel the essence of your strength and then the essence of the other’s strength. Give yourself time to do this completely. Let the essences resonate within you.

Now focus on a weakness that you have, and a weakness that you are aware the other has. Focus strongly on these and experience their essences completely.

Now let us go beyond the persona to feelings. What is the predominant feeling within you right now, and being in such deep conscious contact with the other’s energy, what is the predominant feeling of the other? Experience this completely.

You could, if you wished, take this exercise further to knowing the other’s thoughts on a particular subject, by first focusing on your thoughts and then the other’s. 

Whenever you are ready you may open your eyes.

When someone is hurting you take this exercise to its deepest level: what is my defining point of pain? What is the other’s defining point of pain? You will understand why the person acts, and speaks and thinks and feels the person does.
Now did you mange to experience the other’s thoughts and feelings? You experienced it through your consciousness, because your knowingness held on to the other, throughout the exercise, as separate. There was conscious contact.

You could take this on another level, by doing this same exercise with your beloved Masters. You may question what weakness will I get of the Master? Not so fast; they have been where we are now. It might be a joyous realization for you to recognize that the greatest weakness that your Master had to fight to overcome, is exactly the same as your own. Because YOU AND YOUR MASTER HAVE THE SAME STRENGTH, THE SAME POTENTIAL, THE SAME POWER AND THE SAME CONSCIOUSNESS.

Conscious contact is the truest essence of a ‘trance’ when you can with the strength of your consciousness accept the separation that knowingness is aware of and acknowledge that you see your Master separate from you, because you have to chosen to walk this stage of your evolution without shame, without fear, without pretensions.  With conscious contact you can never lose your ‘self’ because it is you commanding conscious contact with the Master. When you hide behind a mask of so- called unaware trance, you do not acknowledge your own beingness. With conscious contact you choose to work with any strand of energy you desire to, and still experience completely the realm of your personal consciousness and your personal knowingness. 

How ironic that as we attempted to be spiritual we, in fact, burdened ourselves even greater. Maybe that is why so many find this a difficult path. Because you keep finding fault with yourself…’ I criticized’, I judged’. I fought’…. Why don’t you en-joy the opportunities that come your way… the fight, the judgment, the criticism. En-Joy…Make Joy Happen!!! Make joy happen through your existence. Criticism is a part of your existence, just as acceptance is. Rage is a part of you existence just as love and surrender is. Harshness is a part of our existence just as compassion is. Why do we feel guilty when we experience parts of our own existence? It is because you feel guilty, that you resist being who you are. Thus you have to criticize again and again till you complete the experience, you have to fight again and again and again because you resisted it the first time and thus did not complete the experience. Instead of doing it all at once, you do it in 100 different ways.

En-Joy…Make Joy Manifest for you through that experience.

In does not take much thought to know that being such wise souls we would not place in our existence any aspect that is not helpful; it is your perception that labels it positive and negative, good and bad. We do place any deterrents in our path, we do not place hurdles, obstacles, tests….we only place JOY.  It is a joyous situation that has arisen for you to experience the fullness of separation so that the bridge is made and the gap is narrowed. Conflicts do not arise because we are separate but because we don’t accept that we are separate. We have the power, we have the strength, we have the courage to constantly uncover deeper, higher, newer layers of our truth. That is conscious contact….it removes the conflict instantly. Recognize difference, respect difference, experience difference, know difference and be conscious of difference. When you do this at the realm of consciousness which is without boundaries, and which holds within itself every thought and feeling, every action and deed, every word and every nuance, you are moving closer to unity.

 Sohrab mentioned during today’s exercise class that there is no muscle in the physical body that can hold the solar plexus in. Do you know why? If we held our solar plexus in, we would hold in our Divine Power. So physically, we have not given ourselves the opportunity to hold in our Divine Power. We chose that this seat of Divine Will can ever be closed either through volition or unconscious reaction. But you can master your feelings, and your speech, and your actions. And you do have the right to feel stable or unstable as you choose. And for that you have muscle. The physical is not separate from your spirit beingness. It is your spirit beingness. So here is another ‘truth’ we have to remove…that this (physical body) is not me. It is! What a foolish, foolish statement we have been making over the years. What kind of intellectual confusion were we placing ourselves in? Can you take action without the body? Can you move without the body? This is I. We read, we learn…but only half truths. This is me because this is how Ellaeenah’s spirit chooses to show itself. This is me!!!

Throw away the spiritual intellectual games. They stop you from fully accepting yourself, and from fully accessing yourself. You are so stressed trying to accept everyone else, that you have forgotten to accept yourself. I cry within when I perceive the burdens so many live under because of this non-acceptance of ALL that you are….body, mind and soul.

The spiritual journey was not meant to be heavy and depressing… it was meant to be en-lightening. Be proud of the conscious contact that you can make. When will we merge? Oh Lord, I sincerely do not know the answer and I sincerely do not want to know the answer because I am so joyous being Ellaeenah…me….I AM.

Have fun! Have fun! Look at the differences and feel the joy of being YOU and no one else but YOU. Laugh! That is en-joyment. If you love and revere your Master, let the Master be within you, not above you, for when the Master is placed above you, the joy of being you and running each lap of the race is gone. It becomes one more staircase you have to climb, when you are already fatigued by the other numerous burdens.

All those you love and admire, respect and revere, let them be at the level you can see eye to eye with them, so that you can en-joy their energies. Bring your enemies, and those who cause you harm, pain, and trouble, up to your level so that you can en-joy these growth inspiring experiences.

Have fun with conscious contact everyday….that is how you become in-sight-full. Not the strongest prison bars cannot take away who you are.

Thank you everyone.