25-12-2007                                   KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOD

Ellaeenah:

Haven’t you noticed how those who suddenly come into money, get rather loud, too full of themselves, but those who are born into wealth don’t make such a big deal of it? That’s because when you don’t have it and then suddenly, you have a wallet filled with it, you want the whole world to know you have that wallet filled with it because that full wallet doesn’t make you experience your abundance, it makes you experience the lack. That’s your greatest hurdle: that the more you have and the more you know you can have, the less you feel you have; because human beings move from lack; that’s the natural human existence. It’s as natural as the mango seed that grows into a mango tree.

Let your humanness expand so much that when it merges with your divinity, you’re not even aware of it. There’s no moment that you can sit back and think: Ah! This moment. And then you are human and divine and all of it together, and there are no words left. When you can sit in silence before the Master who sits in silence and get up feeling that the Master has imparted the wisdom of the universe to you, that’s when the master and you have mingled. If you asked Sai Baba: How did you become so great? I’m sure he would say, “I don’t know; but I know I am.”

It’s not about what you do, it’s not about what you say, it’s not about what you think; it’s about who do you know you are. People with misconstrued, half-wisdom often come to me in pain and say, “I really thought I was making progress, but yesterday I went and hit my wife again.” All I want to do is embrace him and say, “How much you have grown, because the day you walked in, you thought you were abusing your wife. And today, you are in pain because you know you abused yourself. And from where I am hearing it, I’m so happy you abused her yesterday because, my beautiful friend, if you hadn’t abused her yesterday, you wouldn’t have known that now it is you that you abuse; it has nothing to do with your wife.”

Divinity is not about not making mistakes; it’s about making mistakes and enjoying them. En-joying them: with every mistake creating joy: en-joy. And then it’s not a mistake. It’s not a mistake; it was meant to be. And then there is no self-chastisement, there is no condemnation of self. Remember one thing: every whip stroke on your back that you administer, is reflected as 10 whip strokes on others. The day you stop chastising yourself, you will find everyone perfect. Let the natural process take over; it is so natural and it is not difficult and it is not painful. Get that out of your belief system. Growth is not painful.

I asked someone what she wanted to manifest and she told me, “I want to manifest strength to be able to live in this family, which is constantly abusing me.” I said she had come to the wrong person. I said, “Why do you want to have strength to bear abuse? What a waste of manifestation; manifest joy in the family; not strength to bear abuse.” Why do we want to have strength to bear difficulties? Because we believe we must have difficulties in our lives. It’s part of our conditioning, which we teach our children: ‘things don’t come on a platter; work for it.’

That’s our level of conditioning and that’s what I don’t believe anymore. When people say, “You have to bear it. You have to take the good with the bad.” I tell them Why? Who is telling me I have to bear it? Who? Why must I receive that joy, after having struggled so much for it, that when it comes, it loses most of its charm? I want it now, without pain, without hardship, without difficulty. And why do I get it now? Because I AM GOD.

It’s time to stop buying into this system of conditioning that our priests brought into us in the feudal ages. It was the church fathers, in the west, and the Brahmins, in the east, who made us believe that it was part of the deal. And we went to them again and again and again and we said, “Yes. You have the power over me because I believe you.” No one stopped to think, “That’s not God. What kind of being is that, who makes me suffer? That’s not my God because I know I’m God and that’s not who I am.”

Your idea of God is your belief about yourself. Now ask yourself: what do I believe about me? That what you believe God is, is that which you believe you are.

So when you walk out today, I want 50 Gods walking out and shouting out into the street, “We don’t buy into your belief system anymore. Here’s mine. I have a challenge in 2008: your’s or mine; which is stronger, let me see. I’m not going to live in pain and I’m not going to cry unless I choose my tears. You will not have the power to make me cry.” But to break this bind that we are caught in, you have to KNOW that you are Divine; not here (mind), not here, not here but here (heart). I am God and every moment I can feel the power growing in me and radiating.

Read our myths, every myth from every culture; there are the ‘good’ Gods and there are the ‘not so good’ Gods. Hey, friends, don’t you realize that these myths are about human beings? Divine human beings? As Gods, we have our great good sides and we have our nasty, nasty moments. I have a t-shirt, which I wear very proudly, which has a smiling devil saying: Evil? Me? (Laughter) Yes, laugh at your evilness and you will see how much fun it is to be a devil. Evil has a devil before it; D is for Divine, in my dictionary. So when I say God, I’m not asking you to give up anything you don’t want to give up. I’m asking you to do what you want, without thinking what will my neighbors say?

Who’s pulling your strings? Do you know? Who pulls the strings? Each time an arrow touches its mark and I am hurt, I ask, “Hey, Ell, who pulled your strings right now?”

Choose to associate with Gods; eat with Gods, drink with Gods, be with Gods but have the vision to recognize God. God doesn’t come in a certain bottle of a certain size or shape. Sometimes, he takes on a very ugly form, a very nasty aroma. Can you recognize God then? Devil is evil that’s Divine. It’s like a rum-filled chocolate; you can enjoy its sweetness and get drunk simultaneously. (laughter)

Keeping that Divine in mind, let’s go into our meditation to end 2007 and begin 2008.

Jesus, Mary and Joseph live within us. Jesus was not in the past, nor will be in the future. He walks the Earth now and he will always walk the Earth.

And Mary did not give birth to a child in the past for the Star of Bethlehem still leads every Mary home.

And Joseph did not live over 2000 years ago for Joseph’s arm is felt strong upon our shoulders, each day, when we need the strength of a father.

So let us look inwards at the Jesus, Mary and Joseph. Joseph resides within your mind and Mary within your heart. Jesus resides in your womb as the inner child. And that humble manger where Jesus was born is the small dark womb that shelters your inner child.

So let us turn our attention first to Joseph: our mind. At the end of 2007, is this mind still only an intellectual quest? How does your mind, your father Joseph that you are, lead you? We are given these few glorious moments to say: I’m sorry, to bring all those, whom we judged in our pain because our pain was so strong that in those moments we forgot that I’m God and all else is only my reflection. So I bring all those beautiful reflections of me and I wear, right now, the garb and the cloak of Joseph, the protector, the father, the guide and I first bend low and I ask for forgiveness of me; forgiveness for forgetting that I am God and I and all are His name.

So those who I condemned and those I judged and those I criticized, I call them now before me and with each I am sorry, I break one more chain and the mirror that has the crack is miraculously whole again. And as I look into those eyes, those eyes that I judged, into those eyes that I condemned, I can see me, I can see me, I can see me.

And in 2008, as Joseph, the father, I will think and I will speak only after I have seen my reflection in other’s eyes. And sometimes, if my eyes are blurred with tears or glazed by my own pain of non-recognition of my divinity, I will wait; I will wait in patience till my vision clears and I see my reflection in their eyes. And it is only then that I will speak and it is only then that I will give myself permission to pass judgment, for it is only in that moment when there will be no judgment. And this I will be as father Joseph, in 2008.

And now I turn my attention to Mary, who I am, to mother, Divine gentle mother, whose heartbeat I can hear in my pulse. And as I review 2007, I acknowledge that as Mary, I shut my heart on many occasions; I acknowledge that I turned away those who came to my heart; I acknowledge that I chose my moments of loneliness because they seemed preferable to the fear of a stranger walking through the portals of an open heart. And I now bring back to all those to whom I shut my doors, gently and with compassion. In the fullness of my embrace as Mother Mary, I gently draw them into my heart and embrace them with strong arms.

In 2008, each moment when the doors of my heart threaten to close again, I will put my hand out and touch the heart of another and in that joyous moment, I will find that Mother Mary’s heart beats as one. I will not choose whom I give my love to for all children are mine, all mothers are my own and all fathers my protectors. I will not distinguish between one heart and another, for the embrace of the mother is large enough to encompass the world. I now feel the pounding of my heart and every heartbeat only calls out: ‘Mother. Mother. Mother.’

And now it is time to embrace me, the child I am, the child I was, the child I always will be: Jesus, Sananda, Jesu, Christ, Jade Fire, your own name. If you can say your name in the league of all these names and feel the gentleness of your own embrace, your inner child is at peace.

In 2007, I acknowledge that there were many moments I rejected my own inner child. I turned away from the Jesus that I am; I was deaf to the loud cries that emanated from within my own womb and for all those moments, I embrace myself now strongly.

What is it, in 2007, you put off doing because you were so scared, scared that you would not be able to do it, scared that another might pass in judgment about you? If there was one such moment, let 2008 experience your joyous victory over that moment.

Jesus was never crucified for Jesus has not died. He lives, as you sit here today, He lives in my womb, in your womb. There was no cross to crucify Him, for no one dares crucify a God. I acknowledge that in 2007, I made my own crosses. I now bring all those crosses together, in one large heap and before I enter 2008, I burn them all.

My footprints, in 2008, are light. There is no burden that I carry on my back. I seek not footprints, in front of me, to follow; I only seek that my footprints are strong enough for others behind me to gently place their feet in, till they find their own strength to make their own footprints.

I seek not another to praise me, to gratify me, to validate what I know, for I am Jesus and as I sit here, I feel Him in my womb (touch your womb and feel the Jesus that you are) for He never died; each moment He resurrects through you.

Let us strongly implant our own faces into our 3^rd eye, as Father Joseph, into our heart, as Mother Mary and into every cell of being, as Jesus, the Christ. Let us firmly reiterate: I am the Christ! I am the God that walked! I am God! I AM! I AM! I AM!

Silent night, holy night.

All is calm, all is bright.

Round yon virgin mother and child.

Holy infant so tender and mild.

AWAKE in heavenly love.

AWAKE in heavenly love.