28.01.2007

Ellaeenah

Hi everyone.

Often I have found that questions Yezad asks me are representative of the questions that go through your mind, which you may not have had an opportunity to ask. Yesterday I mentioned to him about how essential it is for all of us to take a risk and know who we are. He asked, ‘What do you mean by taking a risk?’  This is my reply to him.

People are so used to your facades that to really be who you are is a radical shift. Let us take a small example. For years Divyaa, Sohrab, Zaf and I have appeared before you as ‘trance mediums’. It was easier to be JF, or Germaine, or Kali, or Ashtaar. Now, with this shift in 2007, we have to ‘take the risk’ and come before you without the support of the external and very apparent presence of the Masters. And we already know how some have reacted to this change.

One of the first things that happen when you make this shift is that people around you become uncomfortable. Your facades help others to maintain their facades. We never realize this, but it is a two-way street. My façade of being the strong wife, helps Yezad to maintain his façade of being the gentle husband. But that is not really who he is, and only I know that he is not his façade. But, for both of us these facades work at some level, so we maintain them. And this is important to remember… our facades are important for others to maintain their facades, and if you decide to drop your façades and be who you really are, it is going to make a lot of people very, very uncomfortable, because you are, in a sense, forcing them out of their comfort zone of their own facades.

How do they then react? ‘She is crazy… but then she was always a little queer.’ ‘She is trying to be holier than herself.’ ‘She is showing off, believing she is so wise.’ ‘She is in denial… does not want to look at her issues.’ ‘Power has gone to her head.’ These are just a few of the examples of reactions that I have received as I have dropped some of my facades, and I assure you, you will receive these put-downs as well. And do not be surprised if these comments come from those closest to you, both family and friends. This is the first risk you have to be ready to face….biting and maybe hurtful comments from those close to you; maybe even from those whom you never expected these comments and reactions from.

But what difference does this make to you?

Certainly seems that way, on an intellectual level, yes. But when you are at the receiving end of these jibes, the facades come on again very quickly, if you are not committed. You cannot commit to removing all your facades, all at once. You have to identify for yourself, your numerous façades, and then decide which of these you wish to work on in the NOW, and then commit completely to this task. Understand that this is a one by one by one process, and as the number of facades that you drop increases, you begin to rub more people the wrong way, and you realize that in this process you are losing many of your intimate and close circles. Sometimes, you will even ask ‘is this worth it?’  Now, you find yourself having very little external support, from those whom you were reliant on for this. This is the second risk you have to face…being without much external support.  It becomes all about you supporting yourself.

The people who react the most are the ones who are in very, very close physical and emotional contact with you, because your facades were used as the required props for the façades of your close friends and family. Now games begin to get played even more, and at a different level. This is the third risk you will face.

But if your commitment to self is unshakeable, then even if the person/s decide to move away from you, and to place a large emotional distance between you, this risk you will be take in your stride, without losing faith in your truth. Remember you are not dropping your facades, for the sake of others. In this endeavour, the focus is not your spouse, your children, your parents, your siblings, your friends, your Masters….no one but YOU.

When you are ready, willing and able to make this commitment, you are on your journey of unearthing who you are. In the course of this journey, you then begin to see why some of the efforts you have made to resolve issues and to break patterns, have failed, in spite of your consistent and focused hard work, e.g. my struggle with anger.

An important discovery that I made of self, which was a ‘eureka’ kind of moment for me, was ‘I am not an angry person!!!!!’ All my life, I have lived behind the faced of the angry person so well, that I began believing that that is really who I am. And as is common to all the façades that we have, every person around me helped me to reaffirm and fortify this façade, by believing in it as completely as I did! Now I had to question and look into the external manifestations of anger, and the reason behind these, so that I could see who I really am, what makes me tick. If I am not an angry person, then explain the outbursts of anger… that was the internal dialogue. With this search I came face to face with the fact that I use the outbursts very effectively to conceal the fact that I am scared to be scared!!! This may not make sense to you, but it made me sit up straight and go ‘oh my god!!!!’ And made me look at all my numerous fears….Believe me, this search was a slow and long one, because though you commit fully, the internal resistance and long-term habits are very, very difficult to recognize and then to resolve.

It then struck me that for so many years I have been trying to combat my anger, believing that I am an angry person, when I should have been working on my fear of being fear-full…. And no wonder these efforts did not really work, or gave only short-lived results. I was attacking a non-issue!!!! I was attacking the wrong label. Anger is not an emotion with me… it is my defence!! I was now ready to address the right label… scared of being scared. Now, whenever the defence mechanism comes to the fore, I see it for what it really is, and instantly, in that moment begin to work on the truth and not on the façade. A positive surge of power is experienced, the fear of the situation dissipates, and the imbalance considerably reduced.

This brought me to this vital realization… if you are working on what you think is your issue, and it is just not working, in spite of your honest labour at it, it means that you are focused on a non-issue. That is why it is not responding to your efforts. Energy, when given the correct focus, responds instantaneously. When you are attempting to resolve the right label, the response is not only instantaneous, but is tangibly positive.

This may prove helpful to you. Make a list of all that you have been trying, over the years, to overcome or resolve, and have met with little or no success. Now read through this list again, and KNOW that these are non-issues which you erroneously believe are true, because they are your strong facades. Once you acknowledge that these are your façades which you have needed all these years to maintain your inner balance, begin to question what the faced is hiding and why it is necessary to hide from this inner truth. When energy is focused thus, you will find that the results are so encouraging, that even the so-called ‘ugliness’ of the truth seems to become insignificant in comparison.

But, at this stage you will have to be strong enough to face all the risks that we just spoke of. When these comments come your way, internally scan them for their relevance and their ‘truth’. Be brave and do not sacrifice your inner integrity while doing this. Instantly express gratitude for the truth that was revealed to you, however harshly and however minute it might be. Then discard all that is not relevant to you, and begin to focus your attention on all that does. Do not internalize everything told to you, because remember the other is as human as you, and thus as prone to incorrect judgements and psychologically biased perceptions as you are. But do not discard it either, till you have run it through your inner spirit scan.

When you do this, you reclaim your power. When you fall prey to the ‘truths’ of others you give away your power. And that is how gossip flourishes. DO NOT MAKE ANOTHER’S TRUTHS, YOUR OWN. When you do this, you look at the world through the lens of another’s vision. Thus you add on a second and even stronger layer to your perception filters.

Understand that when you change, people get uncomfortable, just as you get uncomfortable when others change. We are all the same; everyone reacts in more or less the same manner. This is part of being human. So take this risk. Commit to knowing completely and fully who you are. With this commitment, every façade will come before you, very naturally for your examination, and then you can decide which one to work on, and which you can put away for another day.

In this three dimensional world aren’t basic facades necessary?

Completely. And that is what I said earlier… you cannot drop all your façades, completely. Some, you will completely let go of, others partially, and a few will remain as strong. But, let us also remember that humanity has moved on into the 5-D energy zone. You will find the more secure you are within, the safer you feel in your skin, the more acceptance of self there is, you will need fewer and fewer façades, and with fewer and fewer people. There will then come a time when there will be a small group of persons with whom who you are fully and completely and only your self… free of all façades. That group will slowly keep getting larger.

Are façades only defence mechanisms?

Only… and always.

Are façades not also the roles we play?

No, the two are different. In our daily life we play so many roles… mother, teacher, sister, friend, child….these are roles in which we function. But while playing these roles we may use facades, unconsciously but deliberately, e.g. the meek wife, the controlling parent, the generous friend.

Yes. I now understand.