18.5.2003

St. Germain

Ellaeenah

Script

This year is ‘year of manifestation’. Do you have the courage to use it to YOUR advantage? It is easier to say: ‘I wish I could manifest all’. It is very difficult when a power is given to you and you have to exercise it. And why? Because you have been conditioned by fear to believe that you are ‘small’.
Each one of you has ‘one root fear’ which, little one, your psychologists call ‘script’.  One.  It could be: ‘I am not worthy’. ‘I do not deserve joy’. ‘I am evil’. ‘I am poor’. ‘I cannot do anything for myself’, ‘I am small’.  Each single one, without exception. You choose that script:’ I do not deserve success’. ‘I must be punished’.

Find out what is yours. When you have found out what is yours, you will then know INSTANTLY all the frustrations that have been present in your life. And you will then know that you have manifested them! Can I really manifest frustrations? I cannot. But you can. In THAT you are stronger than any Being. YOU and YOU ALONE MANIFEST EVERY SINGLE delay, frustration, tragedy, fallback that you face. And if you manifest it, ONLY YOU can undo it. But you must know WHY you manifested it. You must know what is the negative sentiment that you subconsciously repeat again and again after the power of the words ‘I am’. “I am defeated; and YOU WILL BE!  I am poor; and YOU WILL BE.  I am undeserving; and you are.  I am fearful; and everything of fear will be drawn to you.
Ask yourselves this. WHAT IS MY SCRIPT? What do I constantly tell myself subconsciously?  Many of you intellectually are not able to accept this. Even now. You refuse to believe that you say this of yourself. How can I say that I am small? How can I believe that I do not deserve? The masters do not lie. This is the truth that you have to experience by yourself. You have to go to the darkest corner of the dark cavern of your subconscious and unearth it. And you were given the exercise in the last week by our beloved one which can help you. But you must know what it is. And then in context with that, study your life. Study your frustrations.
Does it happen that every time that you are on the brink of starting something new and wonderful, something that you truly desired to do, frustration will come in; in the form of an electronic appliance, a delay of business, a lost friend, something will come, in some form  to stop you ? Does it happen?  Because your ‘script’ is: ‘I am undeserving of joy and success’.

Does everyone consider you insignificant? Are your views never counted? Do all think that you just don’t matter?  The ‘script’ is: ‘I am insignificant’.  A worse script than that is: ‘I am not existing’!

Q: How do we overcome the script?

By first acknowledging, knowing, what is the script. It is difficult. It does not come easily. Do not think that you can sit for an hour of meditation and your answer is given. The script lies so deep down and so well concealed that it takes time. What are revealed to you initially, are off-shoots of the script, which you may wish to call ‘SUB-SCRIPTS’. You overcome the script by overcoming each sub-script. As the sub-script is made clear to you, you then start to work upon the sub-script and every situation in your life that comes about, be aware all the time of the sub-script. First step is always AWARENESS. Second step is doing what YOU NORMALLY WOULD NOT DO!
Why is there negativity?

There MUST be negativity. It is as vital a part of your Universe as is positivity. What is then the purpose of negativity? Your Soul potential is exactly the opposite of what you are at present. In a world of duality the start of a journey is from ‘I am not’.  It moves through the spectrum and reaches a mid point where you are at present, where you know the importance of ‘I am’. The remaining half has to be completed with ‘I am’. That is your choice. If there was no negativity in your world of duality then you would make no growth. It is through this that you truly tap into your potential.