15-8-2005 Pune

Ellaeenah

Spiritual Competition.

There is nothing like spiritual competition. When you’re truly spiritual, you don’t compete and you do not encourage others to compete; you do not instigate others to feel ‘competition’ when it does not exist; you do not provoke others into a reaction playing upon their weakness which you are aware of.
We are, all of us, being trained, and now I’ve understood that true mediumship comes only when the ego can be mastered; till then you are only ‘telepathic channels’. None should claim to be ‘mediums’ if there is a feeling of competition. Is it possible to compete with each other in ‘breathing’? Can we compete with each other in ‘eating’? In ‘sleeping’, ‘talking’? If not, how can there be competition in being SPIRIT? And what is spirituality if not being Spirit?

We are being trained to be ‘mediums’. Are we being trained in being egoistically ‘special’ or are we being trained in giving up aspects of our ego we don’t require any more? Aren’t we all being awakened to our own Light? Is there competition between one ‘bulb’ and another? (pointing to the light bulbs in the room.) How can there be competition in Spirit? When Spirit awakens to Light, Spirit sees everything as PERFECT. So no, it’s not spiritual competition. It’s the competition of an ego-ridden telepathic channel. It’s the competition of an ego-ridden person who invokes, instigates, and provokes rivalry. There is nothing ‘spiritual’ about it.
And how does it damage us all? It dims our Light. Being a victim of those whose ‘envy’ was directed at me, certainly dimmed mine, even if for a very short while. ‘Competition’ can exist only in the minds of those who are insecure, fearful, threatened; whose light still does not shine bright and who are too lazy to do anything about it, but resent and envy those who shine like bright beacons. Should I be angry at those who are insecure? If I am, I have failed Jade Fire and I have failed myself. Did Jesus ever turn away from those who tried to bring him down? Of course there was ‘spiritual competition’ that Jesus faced too. The priests of the synagogue who tried to imprison him, punish him, condemn him, why were they doing this? Because they were insecure, threatened, hostile. There was competition: Light, Spirit vs. Ego. And by spreading gossip and making insinuating comments against me and the others, these few persons behaved much like those priests.
As each one of you grows spiritually, each one of you will go through that test. I wish I could tell you otherwise, but it will be your ‘friends’ who will turn against you. Strangers and acquaintances will embrace you; ‘friends’ will turn against you. But it’s wonderful. Give them the freedom to do this, but don’t judge them at all. In that non-judgment, understand that here is an opportunity for you to be a ‘friend’, to recognize that your ‘friend’ is going through his or her deepest and strongest moments of fear and insecurity and it is not for you to judge them. If their hostility is so great that you cannot embrace them physically, embrace them with all the power of the Love that you have in your heart. It will reach them, and at the level where it really makes a difference. I have done this. Each day for so long I have embraced them in my heart and ‘spoken’ to each, assuring them of my constant Love and complete understanding. I know that one day when their own hearts open, they will see that I am still there for them, without judgment, without condemnation.

 I know today I am being made to speak of this because it is Jade Fire’s way of telling me, “You’ve been successful.” Friends, it’s tough walking the Road. You have to walk it alone and when the power of your Light within increases, it has to emanate and radiate outwards. But that Light threatens. It threatens all whose own light is not as bright. Understand that; compassionately understand that. Don’t want your own light to dim because of that. Don’t berate yourself because of that. Don’t ever have that thought race through your mind, like I did, “I wish my Light wasn’t this bright.” If your own light dims, there will none others to ‘threaten’…. and do you see that this is our role as Light Workers? We have to threaten. We have to make people’s egos feel ‘insecure’. We have to push them out of their comfortable seats. Even if they turn around to you and condemn you for that, we have to do that. That’s our task; that’s our duty; that’s our service and just as in every other field, a person of insecurity competes with another, you will find that happening in spiritual growth too. There will always be one or two wanting to bring you down, refusing to acknowledge your growth, speaking ill behind your back, sometimes openly but more often through veiled and insinuating remarks. That was my test and that will be your test too. When that happens look for a special person in your life who will turn around that situation and make you look at ‘self’. ‘Why are you so upset by it? Look at your own Ego/Spirit conflict.’ It is only when you understand your own Ego/Spirit conflict that you understand the turmoil and conflict of another and then you accept, what must be must be.

Do you know what I truly feel?  Some of you are growing so fast; it is now your turn to threaten others, to make them insecure. Do it joyously. Threaten them with all the Light that you have. Your Light is so big and bright. My dear friends, shine so bright that the ego is scared and lashes out at you. The more the ego lashes out at you, know that you have been successful as a light-worker, as a torch-bearer, as a flame. Don’t let it get you down. Understand that in you there is genuine growth, and not as we have been explained happens very often, that the ego ridden person is offered the use of what they consider ‘high energies’ for only one purpose (unknown to them and most others)…..to bring their ego to a crushing blow very soon. Jade Fire called it ‘giving them rope to hang their egos with’. Sohrab and I both see this happening in our personal sessions with certain persons, and understand the process clearly, even though the ego ridden person temporarily has been given yet another opportunity to be ‘full of himself’, not realizing that she/he is only full of ego which, like an overfull balloon, will soon burst.

Don’t let that Light dim, not even for a short while. But, you are human, and if it does dim when people do turn against you, find one or two close friends to whom you can talk. But be very wise, very discriminative, in your choice. Don’t choose a person who is going to just pat your back. Don’t choose a person who is going to say, “Oh, you’re great. That person is the foul one.” Don’t choose a person who is prone to talking ill of others, who indulges in gossip. Neither Khursheed nor Jim did that for me. They both explained the other person/persons to me, explained compassionately, wanting me to see, with a compassionate eye, what the others were going through which made them act in this way, and then turned it all around on me. Those are true friends, who when you are in a conflict, ensure that you do not judge the other, but take this as an opportunity to study yourself. That is a true friend. I know that these two, with whatever I talk to them about, will never allow me to judge another; will stop me instantly. That is what Sohrab does for me; that is what Divyaa does for me. They do not allow me to wallow. It always is search within. This is how Sohrab, Divyaa, Zafar, Yezad and I are there for each other; refusing to ‘flatter’ and not allow ourselves to be opinionated, critical, judgmental of anyone, in any situation.

So, my dear friends, this ‘competition’ you will face. I can promise you, you will face it. I can guarantee you, you will face it. Every time you face it, feel a sense of honour and pride. Why does the other need to compete? Because the Spirit of that person can see a far greater reflection in your own bright light, and Spirit wants to meet that more expansed reflection but ego is saying ‘no’, whether it is out of laziness, ignorance, lack of self-esteem, we are not in any position to judge. So have that ‘honour’ that you have provided that large reflection for another; that large reflection of Light, of Spirit. Threaten everyone’s ego comfort. Let them shake; they’ll either walk out of your sphere of things, or if they do stick around, they must be, sooner or later, influenced by the power of your Light and grow themselves. Either way, you have done your task as a Light Worker.

People say ‘competition’ is healthy. I disagree. Many persons working simultaneously, at the same tasks, is wonderful. It gives so many people the opportunity to do the same thing in many unique ways, each one adding their own unique touch to the same task. But no one can ever be ‘better’. No teacher is better or worse. No medium is better or worse, because no human being is better or worse. Competition is the ego’s need to show its control and authority. In whichever field you feel you need to compete with someone, question yourself. If Sohrab, for example, feels the need to compete as an actor with another actor, he must question himself, “Why am I so insecure as an actor that I feel the need to compete with another?” Yes, he can take that other actor as his catalyst, as his prod, as his spur to greater things. Competition only tries to make what is large into something small and the saddest part is that unless you have very strong pillars to help you, like I had mine, very, very often the ‘large’ becomes ‘small’.

And please do not misunderstand that ‘competition’ is always ‘direct’. No, often it rears its head as instigating and provoking others to indulge in it, to think poorly of the person you envy and resent.
As I thank my friends, I thank all those who tried to compete, who tried to create an air of dis-ease. Thank you to all those who were hostile, thank you to all those who gossiped, thank you to all who attempted to spread rumours. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. You were only very few in number but the ‘help’ you gave us to grow beyond ourselves, was immense. Thank you. Without the help of your egos, our Lights would not be this bright, this vibrant.