(Pune) 19.06.2005

Talk by Ellaeenah

Superstition. That’s a pretty easy one for me this time because, surprisingly enough, before I really started on my spiritual journey, I was very superstitious. Someone had to just mention a superstition to me and I’d say, “Why the hell should I go out of my way to court trouble?” And I’d kind of keep away from that.

Superstition is completely fear based. It’s the fear of harm. It’s the fear of trouble. It’s a fear of getting into a situation you may not be able to get yourself out off. The fear is not based on anything real. Fear, in itself, is not something we need to knock at because there is something, which I now call ‘true fear’. You stand at the edge of a cliff and you stand very, very close and fear makes you take a step back. That is a real fear, a true fear, warning you, cautioning you that if you were to take one step forward, it would mean the end of your survival. But most of our fears are false fears; they are based on apprehension, of what might happen in the future and superstition is definitely one such thing.

From my personal experience, the more you get yourself into balance, into stability, the more automatically do fears fall away by themselves, without you ever having to actively work on them. In fact, I’ve never advocated actively working on your fears. Why? If I keep telling you right now, “Shernz, through the meeting, don’t sit with your legs crossed”, in apprehension she will only concentrate on not sitting with her legs crossed and everything in the channeling will be left unheard. You keep focusing on what you don’t have to do, what you can’t do. Superstition is very much like that.

So don’t actively work on your fears, actively work on your growth. The more expansed is your growth, the more automatically will those energies fall away, which now cannot stick to your energy field. The magnetic force is not there for them to stick to, so they kind of fall away by themselves. And it is definitely true, even with me, that my superstitions have fallen away and on occasions when they do come up, immediately I tell myself, “Am I so weak that a broken mirror can really bring me 7 years of bad luck? Am I really that weak?”

The truth is that sometimes these superstitions do come true. But why do they come true? Because we have given it our power. We have manifested our own fear. It’s nothing to do with that poor broken mirror or that beautiful black cat. It’s our fear that manifested what happened.

A lot of people tell you to leave your superstitions. How can one leave the superstition? The more you think about it, the stronger the superstition is going to get and in fact, it’s going to take a firmer hold of you. You can’t work on the negative. Let’s be very clear about that. Anything which is an energy block for you, which is negativity for you, don’t pay attention to it.

So many times I have people coming to me and saying, “Ell, will you give me a session? I want to get rid of this fear of mine.” How can I do that? How can I get rid of an energy that you obviously need at present? If you didn’t need it at present, it wouldn’t be there. So even if it is fear of something, if it is a superstition, it’s an energy that you need. Now you will question, “But why do I need this energy? It doesn’t seem to be a beneficial one?” It is. All these energies that we consider dense, that we consider negative, of course we need them. They are such a vital part of our growth. They make us focus on something that we are unhappy with, which we don’t want in our energy sphere. But that’s where we stop the benefit because when we start focusing on it…. “Oh, I have a superstitious nature. I must get rid of it” ….. it grows.

Once you have acknowledged that let’s say you are superstitious, you need to be superstitious at this minute of NOW, leave it and shift your focus to your growth; always shift your purpose back to your growth. Negativities need to be acknowledged and that’s it; then leave them, don’t focus on them. Don’t actively pursue getting rid of them. You will never succeed. It will always be a Catch 22 situation. Acknowledge them, be aware of them and let them be. Every time they arise, again, be aware. Yes, it has come up. So for example, if there is a lizard and this particular superstition comes up, I’m aware. “OK. It’s come up again. This one I haven’t left” but I’m not going to actively pursue it nor am I going to justify or challenge my own self. What is the point? In fact, I’m empowering that superstition. What I will do is give into it with full awareness and then once again, instantly shift to growth because that superstition, that beautiful little lizard, came into my life to tell me, “Hey, Ell! Here’s an area where you haven’t grown enough.” And I say, “Thank you. Thank you. Yes, Ell hasn’t grown enough in a certain area. Ell has to focus more on growth.”

All of our natures, which we have, they are such a beautiful mélange of, what we consider, the good and the bad. I was talking to Sohrab the other day, when he was discussing something with me and I said, “Soh, see that it is perfect.” And he said, “No. How can this be perfect? It’s not perfect” and I said, “Yes, it is perfect. It is not perfect from your perspective but for someone else, who needs to still be in a situation (we were talking about corruption), it is perfect.” Bombay must be corrupt so that it gives the perfect situation to those who still need to be corrupt for their own growth. Yes, friends, there are some who need to be corrupt. They still need to cheat. They need to deceive. They need to lie. But it’s part of their growth. I completely accept that when it touches us personally, it either hurts us or angers us. Give into that. Again, give into it momentarily, with full awareness. Shift back to growth.

I had a beautiful talk with Khursheed today. I was talking to her about something someone has done, which has really hurt me and Khursheed said, “It’s part of her growth. It’s her process. Why are you letting it hook onto your energy because as soon as you’ve done that, your own energy has taken a dip? You see, friends, when you are so firmly intent within yourself to constantly focus on your growth and nothing else; at those times when you internally can’t shift back, there will come someone, like a beautiful Khursheed, at the right time, who will say, “Why are you allowing it to happen?” What was she really doing? She was telling me shift back to growth. ‘Let ‘her’ do what she needs to do. See it as her process.’ It’s perfect, but because it was so close to me, it hurt. When Ell shifts back and sees of course there’s perfection in this, Ell suddenly grows. And does it take time? It takes 5 minutes of internalizing what Khursheed has said for it to fall away as a hook and growth to take place.

In every aspect have a firm intent to grow. The universe will ensure that when you can’t do it on your own, it will bring someone at the right time, at the right place for you; a reminder from the universe, focus on growth, not on the other things.

Suspicion is very much the same. It’s based only on fear, only on fear. If I suspect, let’s say, X of something, it’s because I’m insecure, and because I am insecure, I am scared that X will act or say or be in a certain manner, which can hurt me in the way I fear. So I will then look at her with eyes of suspicion. But as soon as you look at someone with eyes of suspicion, you empower that person.

It’s amazing that these two subjects have come up today. I had a very suspicious nature. I would view everyone with suspicion, especially those who were good with me. The ones who were outright bitchy, I’d respect them for having the courage to be honest about their feelings. Who did I hurt with all this fear? Me. What was my fear? My fear was opening up my heart to love and affection. My fear was, “My God! If I admit that X truly loves me, then what will I do? How will I respond? What will I do with this love?” When you focus on growth you get your answer; “I know now what to do with X love. It’s so simple; RETURN IT, in a form stronger than the one received.”

When you are suspicious of someone, identify the fear. You’ll find that there is a pattern. Even today if there is someone who is flattering me, I pick it up instantly. I’ve honed myself (now this is how my suspicion has helped me in a way), I’ve honed myself so finely that you may tell me the world’s greatest, most wonderful, beautiful thing and yet, I’ll pick up that slight undercurrent of false flattery. Now that’s not suspicion. That suspicious nature has helped me hone my sensitivity. You see, everything helps; otherwise why would I have chosen a suspicious nature, in the first place? I chose it to help me for a purpose and it has. It has made me see that people are beautiful. Yes, they have their flaws and imperfections, but then who doesn’t? `And when I weigh my flaws and imperfections, I very often find that my pan is the heavier. So I certainly am not the right one to judge.

But does it mean that I have the right to condemn…. because suspicion means condemnation? I would, for example, suspect X. But why? Because I condemn her first. I judge her; I condemn her and then based on that condemnation, I suspect her. And how does that harm us? It harms us by not allowing us to grow through another’s experience. Even if all my suspicions of X were to be true but if I were to keep her at arm’s length because of those suspicions, I would waste a part of my own soul that’s X, who is giving me an experience, by being and doing what she is, to mirror and say, “Is this what you want or is it not what you want?” Then choose your reality and manifest it. But I have to be completely open to X’s energies in order to make this choice. Once I close myself to her energies, she hasn’t lost; I have.

So question yourself, “Why am I suspicious? What do I fear?” Once you have recognized this fear, if the fear is too big for you to let go at present and you genuinely know that you are not ready, fine, acknowledge it, “I am not ready to let it go at present.” But immediately what will you do after that? Focus on growth because the more you focus on growth, there will come a time when you will say, “When did I let this fear go?” You won’t even know when it fell away from you.”

So both are quite similar. Both come out of fear.

When Baba tells us, “Put your troubles into my ‘jholi’. Let me take care of it” he’s not asking you to become complacent. The truth is that no Master can really take away your problems or your issues. If that were so, we’d all be leading such perfectly ecstatic lives. When we put our troubles into Baba’s jholi, Step 1: we have to see the trouble and not hide from it. I can’t escape because how else will I give it to Baba? He says, “Give it to me” but he knows that by asking you for it, first you have to say, “This is my trouble. This is my problem.” I can’t suppress it. I can’t escape from truth because then I can’t give it up. So he forces you to accept the truth; to see that there is no fear involved in your ‘being small’. There is no fear involved in your’ being not as perfect’ as you wish to be. There is no shame involved in you having flaws. He’s asking you to see that.

Once you’ve seen that and you hand it over, so to speak, the strongest power of the universe will work for you and that is the power of FAITH. There is no power in the world stronger than faith. I will say that again because we still don’t know the power of LOVE. We only know love as a physical 3rd dimensional word, which it is not.  We still don’t know the force of love. But in our 3D world, there is no force more tangible, stronger and more powerful than faith. So you acknowledge, one, what your trouble is and, two, you bring into your own personal force field the power of FAITH. How can it then not work? You give it the name ‘Meher Baba’ or ‘Jade Fire’ or ‘Germain’ or whatever else you want. You only give it a name.

But if you are doing this ‘giving’ mechanically or you are doing it as a crutch or you’re doing it because it is a damn easy way out that becomes a vehem. “Oh, let me tell Baba. He’ll take care of it.” He’s not going to take care of it. Why? Because you haven’t followed what Baba wants you to do. You’ve acknowledged it, yes, but then you’ve scurried back to your hole and said, “He will do it.” When you say, “He will do it”, when you constantly place things at the feet of the Master or in Baba’s jholi, whatever the case might be, as a crutch, what you are really telling the universe is, “I am weak” and the universe says, “Fine. You are weak. Now we have to treat you as someone who is weak.” Slowly whatever power comes your way has to be removed. You will go to 20 meetings like this, where temporarily, you are empowered because the Masters are there but the moment you walk out the universe says, “Hello! She’s become stronger. Remove. Remove. Remove.” Because  have affirmed I am weak.

The universe does not only hear your words. The universe accepts your affirmations and intentions in the form of energies that you put out. You can say, “I am strong” “I am powerful” every moment of the day and it will not work if your ‘energy intention/belief’ is still “I am weak”.
That’s the faith. So if you have both those 2 things, it has to work for you. It has to work. Then Baba is saying once you do that, then 3rd step: that energy vibration that we call Meher Baba will step in and say, “You deserve to have your energy field now strengthened by this vibration”. Eventually, YOU are the one removing your problem, not Baba. Baba will wait for these 2 steps; then He will empower you with his own energy vibration, by which you remove your problem.